Coming Full Circle

Here's the super short version of this update if you don't want to read the rest: Roberto and I will be working at an elementary school starting in August, the one I worked at before.

Here's the longer version:

I got an answer back from the Ranch, and it was one I had sort of seen coming but didn't want to admit: I would not be welcomed back to the Ranch. Even though I had felt like things had been moving to that end, it was still a painful shock to me that I'm still recovering from. So then I had to ask the question that I always hate answering: What now?

So as Roberto and I talked about our options and our future plans, he suggested we go and work for the school where I had been before the Ranch. I had been missing teaching, the kids, and the friends I had made there, so I readily agreed to contact them and find out if we could do that. After what seemed like a long wait (but was really just over a week), they said yes!

There are still a LOT of details to figure out, but I'm getting more and more excited every day about returning to San Pedro Sula to teach with my husband by my side. Although I previously faced a lot of emotional problems while being there, a lot of that came from isolation, which won't be a problem with Roberto. I'll not only be able to be working and living with my soul mate, but we'll also be able to more easily go places together that I wasn't able to do safely while living alone.

Please be praying for us as we make this transition!

We currently have 2 weeks to find a place in San Pedro Sula to store my things and a way to transport them (it's about 8 hours from Ojojona to San Pedro Sula), and I also have to renew my Honduran residency in San Pedro Sula. And, I have to do it on my own because Roberto has to stay here to finish up his university classes and to work.

It's also going to be a big adjustment when we do move in August because we'll be even more on our own which means I'll have all the possibilities of running a home in addition to working. And he'll be adjusting to a slightly different culture and ALL new people in his life.

One more thing!

We want to be able to do ministry in San Pedro Sula, but aren't sure if we'll have the financial freedom to do so. Our first step will be buying a car, which we're both working hard for right now. Once we get to San Pedro Sula and get a vehicle, we can start exploring our options and see where God leads us. I have a few ideas, but nothing definite yet.

If you would like to continue supporting Roberto and I in our missionary work, then you may do so by sending money to my personal PayPal or a check to my dad with my name on the memo line. For info on giving by check, please email me.

March 2016 Update - When “When” Becomes “If”

It’s hard when you’re making all of your plans because you’re sure of what’s going to happen. You’re able to turn to your husband and say “when we get to the Ranch, we’re going to…” and “when we’re raising support to go to the Ranch, we’ll need to…” But when all of that changes and everything is up in the air, it’s hard. It becomes “if we go to the Ranch, then we can…” and “if we don’t go to the Ranch, then I guess we’ll have to…”

At the beginning of March, there were two groups that came to serve at the Ranch back to back. I had originally agreed to return to during that time to help with the groups, but then something happened… Olivia, the kitten I’ve been raising since she was just 10 days old and needed to be dropper-fed with goat’s milk every 3-4 hours, wasn’t able to walk or even stand.

Long story short, she had a calcium deficiency that had led to weakness in her bones and so she started limping badly on one back leg after I tossed her from the bed (she was out of control biting, and that was far from the first or last time she’s been tossed from a bed), but then did something to her other back leg and couldn’t stand at all.

This happened 2 days before I was supposed to leave to help with the teams, and right after I had packed all my things in preparation to leave. Because I knew I wasn’t necessarily NEEDed at the Ranch like I was to take care of my cat who now needed to be propped up to even use the bathroom (which nobody here could easily do since they’re used to big dogs, not delicate kittens), I asked to be released from my verbal agreement to go.

That led to a lot of frustration on both sides. They at the Ranch felt like I was once again breaking my agreement with them, and I felt like they weren’t being very fair when I was just as frustrated about not being able to come, but wasn’t willing to risk Olivia’s life to do something that I knew could happen without me. After several more conversations, everything has been left up in the air.

Roberto and I both know that we want to go to the Ranch to serve. But, we don’t know if we will be allowed to serve there and if we are, when we would be able to go. It may be this summer or it may not be until fall. If it happens at all.

It’s in God’s hands now, and He knows what’s best for us.

So now we’re just waiting, which is really hard for me. I like to be able to be planning for the future, so not knowing what the future holds makes that impossible. If we are going to the Ranch, then I want to be planning Bible studies and start connecting with people and churches to visit during our furlough. But if we’re not, then I want to be planning for living here in Nicaragua, and possibly going with one of the other ministry ideas that’s been forming in my head.

Please be praying for us during this difficult time! Pray that God opens the doors for us to go to the Ranch if that truly is His will for us, or that He will make it abundantly clear if we’re not meant to go there. And if He does have other plans for us, pray that He opens new doors to let us pursue other ministry opportunities.

To my supporters: Your support is SO appreciated, and I want to assure you that I’m not using any of it while living here in Nicaragua. Roberto and I are currently supporting ourselves from what he’s earning and are waiting for God’s direction before using any ministry funds. I will keep you updated on finances as we learn more about what God has for us in the future!


P.S. Olivia is now back to her normal crazy self!